We The Me

In India, films are a big big thing. Be it anybody from little child to oldies, rich or poor, films are for everyone and everybody loves films. Its like the variety is such that you won't find anyone not being able to name a single film in ages which he/she doesn't like. And given the number of films released each year, it makes it easier for anyone to find film of his/her choice. But despite of this, everyone has a different view on what kind of film would succeed and believe me there is huge variety, right from multi-million dollar big star productions to small time budget films, from commercial to parallel cinema, you would find no less in any category. But at the end of the day, its not the production but the selling which one is looking at. And what sells is anybody's guess as mine. But once in a while amidst all this comes a film which everyone seems to love, irrespective of if it has big stars and foreign exotic locations or not. Same goes for big actors...people lik...

Sometimes i feel when people say time passes everything, they are wrong. Things might become history, might be past tense but that doesn't make it past. It stays, lingers on, reminds you, changes you and you live it each day each moment , you are living in this life , can't say much about next because i haven't seen it. The more you think, you have forgotten things, the more you remember them, since maybe before you never forgot those things so no chance of reminding or remembering them. Past is always with you, in a way it might be good since it leads to, lets you have the experience all the while making you mature, learned, insensitive, cognizant and aware. But yes, it stays with you. You might not want to get back to it and you might not want to live through it again but the nostalgia remains. Nostalgic not because probably they were the best times but because many of your actions and memories are entwined in them. And maybe it feels good because you live that particular...

Remember starting this blog in July some weekend...... tere bin mein yun kaise jiya , kaise jiya tere bin lekar yaadein teri, raatein meri katein Couldn't write it further...not because didn't have words but probably because feelings turned my words to water which came gushing out, and i saw the words, feelings and emotions floating in it...it was one of those times probably when being shut was the best i could do or probably that was all i was capable of doing... Thanx to two really sweet people, each very different from each other yet look the best match and most near to anyone i have seen, helped me not drown in the tide. Now when i am finishing this post , just thinking of writing a post only on these two...one named as "K Bihari" and the other my very sweet sweet _ _ A_ _ I :)...thanx is all i can say...

my mind is having its own life today. Different from my present physical existence. and its not as if its left my heart behind. The heart is following my mind , just trying to change certain pictures, removing certain people and trying to paint new ones to make them my best memories maybe. I can feel the chill of the winds after a nice afternoon rain, standing on the top of the water tank or even on the terrace of a house. I can smell the earth and hear the wind. I see somebody just standing there leaning against the wall while I look out towards the city, with my arms open, trying to catch the wind or rather get blown away in it. I can see the shining road, winding in a distance, visible at places behind the trees that dot the far stretch and cars zipping on it, climbing the silkboard bridge. Though the honking is quite clear to my ears but its shrill effect is probably minimized or totally subdued by the chilly breeze. On the other side, I can see tall aprtment buildings lined up one...

I am trying to get a better perspective of how things work in lif. Maybe I am thinking aloud and maybe these might be questions rather than my thoughts for everyone to ask themselves...Straight to the point- One can get desired things in various ways- primarily two...get it from someone or buy it...there is another one -steal it but i wud suppose most of us won't go that way. Now, if we were to get a poll, how many of us wouldn't like to get things gifted to us from our forefathers or inherit a wealth from our ancestors and be born with a silver spoon. I guess no one would say NO. Another question, does that mean that all of us would be ready to ask our parents to buy us things which might not be that expensive for them but definitely expensive on "common man standards". Probably. Y is the question? I would assume the following reasons: 1) We don't want to be a burden. Lez make clear that our wishes would not be a burden for our parents but definitely we all know...

"Money"- one thing for which the law of marginal utility fails. You would never hear a person saying that one has enough money or doesn't have anything in mind which he/she could use it for or maybe at a particular point in time not able to think of atleast two things which he would wish to spend it on. You hear some people saying that they don't want money or want just enough for something and thats it but then you see the same people getting excited about certain things. And if those people are close to you, what would be your inference? I would suppose that those things would make them happy or even get that lil glint in their eyes. What would you do if you were me? I am unsure what you would do but I would guess that your obvious answer would be I would get it for them. Ok...rightly said. So then where is the contentment? I always feel that being content is a manifestation of one's brain or an assumption which one wants to live with or a mirage which one creat...

Life is not what it will be or what it was…it is always what it is right now at this very moment. I have realized this suddenly. And suddenly this thought has brought me loads of happinness. Its like in my junior school, one of my teachers (Ms. Ranjeeta Saxena) used to say" There is no kal "( kal in Hindi it means yesterday as well as tomorrow) because when u can never live yesterday and when u reach tomorrow, that becomes today. Therefore there is only the present moment and so if you are happy this moment , u shud be happy :-). And if anything or anyone gives u happiness only for this very moment, you should be thankful to that person/thing/activity. As I write this, I am more and more being driven into this thought of living it out today, right now , this very moment.

Barcamp bangalore...no more a techie or putting it in better words a techie in my previous life which i wanted to leave and move on..i suddenly realize that my association with barcamp has taken me back to it or made me think on getting back to my strength..not saying that i would like to go back to days where i used to sit down and code but maybe to just get into something with "processes". i like everything which has a flow, runs in processes and is a part fo system. Seems like I am writing straight out of a System dynamics book but frankly believe me , thats how i feel. Just today, i felt so good just on seeing a simple flowchart, felt like that was the thing that is in me. Sorry, I just forgot I havent ever in my blogs given u my background. Just to keep it short, i am into finance or lez say i deal with income statements, balance sheets and numbers everyday and its not as if i don have a thing for numbers, my mind does work well with numbers but maybe what flows through ...

We have always read that the more you try to hold sand , the tighter u try and holdit, the faster it goes out. Have always heard it, have always read it but today I am feeling it. Don’t know why but in life everything seems to be slipping out of my hand or control. Nothing seems to be working out. Not as if everything was always under my control or wishes but at least I was able to hold myself between all that was happening around me, some of which I was a part and some of which I was a mere audience but still it seemed that I could at least uphold myself in the midst of all the chaos. But now I am kind of tired or maybe disheartened or maybe just plainly disoriented and am kind of crumbling. I don’t want to let go sand because that’s all I have left with me. But as the saying, not able to hold onto this also…

Samosa (sa-mo-saa) - for the unaware, it is an Indian snack made of flour filled with fried potatoes inside. Spice can be added to potato to taste though spicy might be the best suited for it. The outside is basically a fried crust. Samosa is a great replication of two totally disparate sides, choices, tastes and feelings. It is hard to find such things in this world which can be so different in composition yet be part of the same entity. On one hand where the inside is spicy for people with tolerant taste buds, the outside is plain and totally spice-less for the toned tongues. The outside strong crust gives the hard feel to it while the softness inside makes it relishing. It is made such that as soon as you break into the hardness , you are greeted with the nice aroma from the inside and the whole samosa breaks into parts. The pyramid shape itself generates a mystic feel to it and makes it stand out on a platter. According to "www.Samosa-connection .com", the Samosa basical...

Srushtee se pehle sat nahin thaa, asat bhi nahin Antariksh bhi nahin,aakash bhin nahin thaa Chhipaa thaa kyaa kahaan, kisne dekhaa thaa Us pal to agam, atal jal bhi kahaan thaa Shushtee kaa kaun hain kartaa, Kartaa hain yeh vaa akartaa Oonche aakaah mein rahtaa Sadaaa adhyaksh banaa rahtaa Wohin sach much mein jaantaa..Yaa nahin bhi jaanataa Hai kisi ko nahin pataa Nahin pataa Nahin pataa Nahin hai pataa Voh tha hiranya garbh srishti se pehle vidyamaan Vohi to saare bhoot jaat ka swami mahaan Jo hai astitvamaana dharti aasmaan dhaaran kar Aise kis devta ki upasana kare hum avi dekar Jis ke bal par tejomay hai ambar Prithvi hari bhari sthapit sthir Swarg aour sooraj bhi sthir Aise kis devta ki upasana kare hum avi dekar Garbh mein apne agni dhaaran kar paida kar Vyapa tha jal idhar udhar neeche upar Jagaa chuke vo ka ekameva pran bankar Aise kis devta ki upasana kare hum avi dekar Om ! Srishti nirmata swarg rachayta purvaj rakhsa kar Satya dharma palak atul jal niyamak raksha...